Trust If you must Or wait. Watch to detect whether this is Lust Or the Dust of a previous Relationship Or frust Ration. Ration the things That you offer in return Maybe. Until a little time has passed And a light Rust Reassures you That this one won’t bust.
Emotional contagion
Often we write to express the darkness the sadness the feelings that we can only put down on paper safely contained in black and white so they can’t drip and damage and hurt. I know I do I don’t scream or rage at you or tell you of the unkind feelings I have towards you. … Continue reading Emotional contagion
Accountable
This week I have resolved Not to go backwards Not to relapse Not to throw myself back into Work only Where there should only be Emotion Connection Joy I need the help of others The songwriters The poets The huggers Who squeeze me with their Tunes Words Embraces Back to life Life support Not in … Continue reading Accountable
Anxious
I am worried about everything And nothing. Free floating anxiety Generalised anxiety disorder Call it what you will. A hyper-vigilant, jingly-jangly nervous system And a brain that wants to fix all the broken things to soothe the jangling inside. Shouting headlines that don’t help Broken education Broken NHS Broken care system Broken environment Broken me? … Continue reading Anxious
Long term plans
Long term plans. Inspired by the brilliant Michael Rosen and this: https://youtu.be/S12U-8wPrhA There are too many books to read Too many songs to sing Too many people to meet. Too many views to see Too many thoughts to think Too many cheeses to eat. Too much Too many Too little Too soon. But bravery’s doing … Continue reading Long term plans
Tired
It’s New Year’s Day and I’m tired. I have tried several times to write a piece about the New Year..hopes..dreams..advice…. but is has alluded me. I used to be so good at writing blog posts. If I look back, I can see endless posts, words and ideas and it genuinely surprises me that my brain … Continue reading Tired
Half full or half empty?
I came home and the full teacups were on the table. You had told me they would be but nevertheless they pulled big fat tears from my eyes. What if, what if, what if? Tea not drunk. Hugs not shared. I love yous not said. When in fact I love you both so much That … Continue reading Half full or half empty?
And I still haven’t found what I’m looking for…or have I?
Hello. It’s me again. It’s that slightly blurry time between Christmas and New Year and I am sitting in the back of a car…. So true to form, I have decided to write. I love writing. The shaping of words into patterns that help me and perhaps others to make some sort of sense of … Continue reading And I still haven’t found what I’m looking for…or have I?
Unboxing Day
What have you let out of the box on this day? Love, words, smiles, songs, parts of yourself that stay hidden For the other 364? Is it the space, the time, the love, the breath… or the wine That let you be you, out of your box? Or has the bow remained tied? The wrapping … Continue reading Unboxing Day
Poems for the end of a term.
End of term at last. I am very tired but in a good way. Not the same tiredness of the last few years (which was battle fatigue) but rather a tiredness resulting from things achieved and progress made. I have written two love poems. The first is for the children I work with and also … Continue reading Poems for the end of a term.
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